It’s been a year.

You know that song "it's been a year..."?? Well, it's been a year. If we're being honest, it's been a couple of "years." They haven't all been bad. There have been some really great moments. Core memories that I'll treasure forever. Surprising the kids with a trip to Disney Christmas 2020, baseball weekends at Baum … Continue reading It’s been a year. →

Day 304 of 366

Lessons from Home: Quarantine Edition In the spring, our lives shut down. We did not leave the house for much—not church, work, school. No family visits north. Only trips to Texarkana were for doctor visits. All activities were suspended. No more cheer, dance, t-ball. No birthday parties. No get-togethers with friends. No play dates for … Continue reading Day 304 of 366 →

Day 134 of 366

I glanced up from washing my hands. Paused. Blinked.Looked again.Looked closer.Blinked again.And there it was. A closer look revealed not just one, but several. Some I probably couldn't see, because the bathroom lighting is so poor. My heart sank, my confidence deflated as I physically felt my youth fade away. So much new growth. Yet … Continue reading Day 134 of 366 →

Day 105 of 366

“Grace means that all of your mistakes now serve a purpose instead of serving shame.” Every morning, Mr. Roy sends out encouraging texts. I got on the list, because my mom was sending me some, and finally told me to ask him to add me. I look forward to them every day. Sometimes they are … Continue reading Day 105 of 366 →

Day 97 of 366

Been awake since 9am Sunday. It’s midnight Monday night. Lots of mom guilt.Lots of teacher guilt.Lots of guilt. Lots of anxiety.Lots of unknowns.Lots of going and going and going. Because if I stop, then what? I function better in high stress situations. I move into survival mode. There’s no time to let anxiety and fear … Continue reading Day 97 of 366 →

Day 68 of 366

It’s Daylight Savings, and the clock is about to roll forward an hour. So technically, it’s 2:47am. And I’m wide awake. Sometimes, the hardest thing to say “no” to is my brain. It just won’t shut off. And tonight is one of those nights. Which means tomorrow (today) is going to be one of those … Continue reading Day 68 of 366 →

Day 49 of 366

This "no" thing is a lot harder than it looks. Maybe some of it is my obsessive need to make everyone happy, or maybe it's the guilt I feel when I can see that my "no" has disappointed someone. Whatever it is, the last seven weeks haven't been easy. And yet, I'm saying it. I'm … Continue reading Day 49 of 366 →